It's a breezy Sunday afternoon here in Nashville and my husband and I are heading out for a walk. After receiving a message from someone who read my blog, it occurred to me that it has been months since I posted an update and I apologize.
Life with six kids, five dogs, a husband and extended family has been busy, but good! As with most women, it is easy to become bogged down in the every day hustle of life and fail to give certain areas of your life much needed attention.
So, here I am, taking a moment to reflect on these past six months back on ADDYI and provide updates or insights into my progress.
I am ecstatic to report that, yes, the second time around ADDYI has restored my lack of desire back to where it was several years ago when this process started. And, once again, with minimal or no side effects! Once again "wanting to want" my husband is a reality and those sporadic, erotic thoughts enter my mind on random occasions with no "trigger" necessary. It is good to be back.
Having said that, I will also share that unlike when I was on the clinical trial, when my now husband and I lived in two separate homes with 2 and 4 children respectively, we are now all under one roof and happily married. With that comes a new set of challenges, however, that were absent before.
Where we used to have every other weekend "alone" and the privacy of our home, we now seem to have little, if any, alone time. Between the six children (we have three in college and three in high school) and the regular routine of weekends with or without kids has sort of gone out the window. So, where we were used to having known "alone" times, we now often are surprised by an unexpected visitor. Of course we are delighted to have one of our collegiates back home, but it does pose a challenge for our intimate times.
As I have always said, and as the company has said, ADDYI is not an aphrodisiac and will not cure a relationship problem or work in the face of surprise visitors or complicated schedules. So I interject here that while ADDYI works beautifully, there are times when it's effects are not apparent...as in the above mentioned times. The good news about that is, when the house is once again quiet or the crisis is over, ADDYI is still in my system and once again rescues my desire.
It is very much like a flower that blooms and thrives in the sunlight but when the sun goes down it withers up and is no longer shining in the light. Once the clouds or darkness lifts, the chemicals inside the flower respond to the light exposure again and the bud once again blooms. So does my desire...ADDYI has restored it and it is there, ready and waiting. What a relief to know that my flower can and does bloom and I "want to want" again.
So, for those wondering, I am not hyper-sexual and we are not having sex 24/7...and we did not expect to be. We have found our new normal now that we have combined households and live with six children, six dogs, 3 cats and a partridge in a pear tree! :-) ADDYI was and continues to be instrumental in maintaining that normal for us!
Honestly, without ADDYI, I am confident that my "want to want" would once again disappear and life with these new norms would be distressing...as distressing as it was 5 years ago before ADDYI first appeared into our lives. I never miss a pill, it is as important a part of my day as taking my vitamins and brushing my teeth. I am comfortable with it's safety, confident in it's efficacy and committed to never sinking back into the hole of guilt and shame I felt before and after the clinical trial.
Life is Good!
If you are still contemplating speaking with someone or think you might have HSDD, please feel free to reach out to me for a referring physician...
